Well I'm back in school and in my new apartment and while I do love having my own space and especially love being off campus for some reason I am unable to find myself ecstatic or at least a higher level of happy. Something feels different about this year. Maybe it's because I haven't really done anything, or gone anywhere. I mean granted I've been out a few times to see a friend, to eat lunch, to get some groceries and such but for all intensive purposes I feel as if I have accomplished nothing w/my life since I have been here. Since one of my roomies joined a sorority she's been in and out and when she's in she always seems to be doing something for it. I don't think it's bad in fact I commend her for doing something. My other roommate, eh she comes and goes as she pleases, she works regularly tho, and if she's not working it seems like she has something to take care of.
And what do I do? I get up and I don't really do anything, i don't really have a car so it's hard for me to get from point a to point b. Sure my roomies say that they will give me rides to places if I need to and for that I'm very grateful but I hate relying on them I feel like I'm interrupting their lives. My point is that the are doing things and I am not. In a strange way I'm looking forward to when classes start so that I can have something to do. And sadly that's so depressing that I look toward that. Hmmm...maybe this year I will join another club if I find one to be of interest. Because those of you who know me well know that I have to stay busy to be sane and rite now I'm starting to tip of the brink of sanity...
-KiraKatja
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