Suprized? Me? Never!

Upon having nothing to do in this, the wee hours of the morning (well not really but that just sounds better for this) my mind began to wonder. It went though many things yet the most important being that i love suprizes. They're fun it's nice to never see something coming yet i've never really had suprizes in my life really (not ne welcome ones neways). For birthdays when i did have a party (which was like once or twice) i knew about it. When I'm venturing somewhere new w/friends i knew about it. Just so many things and events in life where I would have loved to be suprized and now never will be. There are many things I want to do but the problem is i don't want to come up w/it myself...u kno i want other ppl 2 come up w/it. I always plan things...and while i enjoy planning it's nice just once not to plan. I'm tired of finding the new clubs, the new resturants, the new places and gathering ppl 2 go 2 them. Once again yes i like planning but just once one in life i'd like to have some unknown thing awaiting my attendance. I've done many suprize things 4 ppl but *sigh* no one ever does 4 me. I'm not trying 2 sound selfish or nething but just once I want to be told hey we're gonna go somewhere, or put on thus and so and tell me nothing more. The further problem w/this is now it is known that I wish 2 be suprized and if someone gets the idea...is it still then a suprize. Guess I'll always kno what's coming in my life event wise :(

-KiraKatja

PS. After typing this blog I closed the windows I had pulled up of new resturants I was looking to venture out to. Sad thing is soon, one day, I will be the one taking someone or some ppl to one of them for some non-siprising 4 me event...